it's 1:00 a.m. here sa akong computer clock pero i'm still downloading all important software devices for my PC, right now im instaling HP Printer, next ani ang microsoft Office. Di pa ko matulog kai i feel so bad ang angry inside "i don't like sleeping with my heart aches". so i'd rather stay up late finish what am doing to cool down. just as im doing some computer restoration i will also do some inner restoration sa akong gibating kalagot. yesterday morning i felt so bad at my younger brother because he got mad when i woke him up. turno turno man gud mi ug gamit sa banyo siya dapat ang mas una nako maligo because his classes would start at 7:30 a.m but he got angry at me waking him up and demanding him to get fast. there are five of us here in the house and all of us will be moving out early in the morning to attend to our daily duties. schedules must be strictly and religiously followed. anyway, that early morning bad feelings were left in the house. i had a good time in my workplace. but later in the evening when i arrived home i got munch through with my younger brother again. He had the PC infected with viruses. I knew it was him, again watching porn materials in the net.i saw this familiar porn site url again in the address section. i got so mad at him that i had to utter the ugliest words i could blow just to release all anger inside of me. when i tried logging in to my YM for our online conference with my close friends who are now working in other places they have to tell me "what are you sending" " you are sending me a virus" "oh this is porn". Shocked of their reaction all i could do is to apologize "Huh! oh sorry this is my first time to encounter this kind of problem,i apologize. I think it's my younger brother again watching porn sites." And one of my friend told me " oh ikaw weng ha.. defensive.. maski siya gani na ni watch". i got crazy with that comment pero way nakoi mahimo. Then i have to send all my YM friends a message not to open the virus entry in their chat boxes. i also received the virus entry message. then bang!!!!........... before i could finish informing all friends the PC log off and could not anymore recover. and so i did a PC restoration. i was feeling so so so bad awhile ago and i was so mad at my brother labi na ni ingun akong neice nga he invited a classmate dire sa balay ganina and they were using the PC and they were having fun. nisamot pa gyud akong kasuko kai ni ingun pa gyud sya nga she saw my brother and his barkadas one time watching pornography in the net.lagot kaayo ko. may nalang gani gi textsan ko sa akong mga friends to calm down. our house has been an avenue for all of these ugly things?. this is too much. as in naglagot gyud ko. why man ko naglagot kaayo? nawala man gud tanan akong saved files (mao gyud kaha), kai wla ko ka apil sa conference with my friends (sure ka mao ni?), kapoi ug restore usik kaayo sa time (sakto ka kapoi jud) or basin unconsciously i am not only angry at my brother but sa akong self sab because i have had an inner struggle with internal house cleaning especially my thoughts" if my brother view pornography in the net and he was public about it and i myself have tried creating a compartment in my mind for sensual scenes will it make a difference?. perhaps i am angry of my ownself as well ............. right now calm nako ug mo retire nako. i have to talk to my brother nalang unya.
GOD BLESS US ALL!