WHY NOT GIVE UP

I'm a super pessimistic in the past. I worry a lot and make small stuff big. I do not know how to handle difficulties and problems. Had it be that I do not have a super optimistic father I could have gone to suicide hehhehehehe gosh just kidding, i honestly did not resorted to such. I'm enrolled in law school right now and mind you I'm not doing good with my studies. Law school is depressing because it kills almost all of your time studying and reading bulk materials (books and cases). It really subtracts my time for my family, my community, my friends, my work (shshshshhs) and myself. I did not have good long hour sleep, and my savings are sliced.